Music superstar Fergie has been at the top of her game for quite a long time now and, as well as enjoying a huge amount of success in her career, the sexy star has also led a happy personal life, marrying Hollywood actor Josh Duhamel and having four year old son Axl with him. However, it seems that all has not been as it seems, with Fergie now opening up about how she has battled her inner demons, praising the church for helping her to get her back to a good place.
Fergie explained, "I got to a point where I was seeing devils everywhere. Devil faces. Creatures that would appear to me would say, 'Fly, fly, fly.' I would constantly be in this state of listening to the messages that all of these creatures ... what they were going to tell me. What their messages were and what I should do and life became almost like this whole game. I was just going to lose it. I was about to start screaming at everybody in the street."
She added, "I ended up on Wilshire and I saw this church. I have journals of it all and I remember writing to myself throughout that period of my life. It's how I can divulge my true feelings because it's been difficult to trust, for me, in my life, so the paper is always where I could emotionally get to those crevices - those little corners of feelings. I'm so glad I did it because at least I was checking in with myself, at least I knew that I was becoming a f**k up."
Fergie continued, "I had to really work hard at telling the spirit, the vision, to go away. I had to say out loud, 'Leave me alone, I choose the good.' It was this epiphany I had in the holy war of good against evil. That walk out of there [the church] - all of that demon that was there, it all of a sudden just lifted. It was almost like walking into the light. I realised that I finally needed to honour myself and that is really still a challenging place that I often have to work on to this day."
Fergie has been very open about her personal life recently and, following rumours that she and husband Josh Duhamel were preparing to have another baby together, the couple came out to reveal that they had actually split up and had not been together since the beginning of the year. Fergie recently spoke about their decision to keep their split quiet, claiming that it was one of the hardest things she has ever had to do. Sounds to us like this battle with your demons must come close.
